Tiny Talk Tuesday

Haven’t posted a Tiny Talk Tuesday in a while, but not for lack of chatter in our household, BELIEVE ME.  I’ve just been a little behind in general lately!

 

And so my first TT is from just before my trip last month:

[Explaining to his co-op teacher that they would be absent during the week of my trip]

Heriberto [loud and clear for all the families to hear]:  Mama’s going to El Salvador, and we won’t be here because Papa’s too shy to bring us!

[Thus sealing forever that Fred will not set foot in that classroom... even though, no, he's not!]

 

 

[I've been working with José recently on doing his brother the courtesy of waiting for him to wake up on his own in the morning, rather than José waking him up and Heriberto being tired all day.  I should point out that BOTH boys get up before Fred and I do, so we don't really know what all goes on...]

Me:  Did you let ‘Berto sleep all the way till his body was ready to wake up by itself?

J:  Mmmhmmm, but Monkey [J's favorite stuffed animal] didn’t … he was just dancing around and dancing around, until Bear waked up.

H:  (to José) Yeah, I wasn’t ready to wake up.  You should really put him in timeout.  [They're gonna be GREAT uncles one day!]

 

 

[Getting ready for school one morning, I overheard a very heated argument about an imaginary football game the boys were having that included:]

H:  No, NO, NOOOO.  I’m just the only one who’s on the Ravens!  [no doubt why they didn't make it to the Super Bowl this year!]

J:  No, I’M on the Ravens!  You’re on the Colts!  My imaginary friends are all Ravens!

H: No, YOUR imaginary friends are on MY team, and I’m on the Ravens.  And you have to try to beat us, but we’re going to beat YOU! 

J:  But I don’t want to kill my imaginary people!  [not sure why he thinks you have to "kill" anybody in football????]

H:  Well, they left now.  The game is over.

J:  But I still see more imaginary people!

H:  No, those are OTHER people’s imaginary friends!

[I'll let you know how the schizo meds work out for us.]

 

 

[On table manners, during a recent spaghetti dinner]

Me:  Boys, please use your utensils.

J:  Mama, in José World, they don’t use forks.  In José World they just use their hands.  (wiggles greasy fingers and grins)

["In 'José World?'"  Where do they get this stuff?]

 

 

[Fred, trying to explain the concept of money to the boys]

F:  Where do you get your money?

J:  From Mama.

F:  And why does she give it to you?

J:  Because she loves us.

F:  [not exactly expecting that one.]  Well, yes, because she loves you, but why else?

H:  Because we do chores.

F:  Right, and also because she loves you.  And where does Mama get the money she gives you?

J:  At the dollar store?

 

 

 [Their Tía Amy was over recently, and she started a game of "Tell Me Something that Starts With ____"]

A:  Tell me something that starts with the letter “H”

J:  Something that starts with an “H” … ummm … -GTV?”

[and now you know our viewing habits!]

 

 

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Color? No way!

I’ve been assured that it’s “normal for boys” – though I have certainly met a few exceptions to that stereotype.  But my two HATE to color.  And just in case I was starting to think it might be time to reintroduce the concept, I got two great reminders, this past week, of what happens when they’re “made” to.

Our Russia-study wrap-up party was last Thursday. (Every time we study a country, we get together with four other families and have a party.) And one of the Russia-party activities was to color (shudder) a set of matryoshka (nesting) dolls.  While I watched my friend’s same-aged daughter not only neatly color in the lines but also embellish the front of her dolls dresses with a hand-drawn flower on each (and yes, she matched all her dolls), here’s what one of my guys came up with.  (Apparently, in addition to a general ignoring of lines, he also believes women should be seen and not heard?  Where’d their mouths go?)

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And then yesterday, as I was picking them up from their kindergarten class at church, I glanced at the papers their teacher handed me.

“José, what a great job you did, coloring!”  (And for him, this is.)

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“Not me, Mama” ‘Berto chirped up.  “I drawed a Darth Maul.  And there’s me at the bottom with an axe, so I can kill him and climb up to the next level.  And I gived Jesus glasses.”

And indeed, all of those things ARE on his page.  With a few brown scribbles in the middle that I’m guessing happened because his teacher was standing over him and telling him he “should” color.  Hopefully his teacher has a sense of humor because it does rather appear like Satan is hovering over Jesus’ shoulder.  

We may be getting kicked out of Sunday School.

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P.S. Did I mention we’re obsessed with Star Wars in this house?

Parenting Due-Diligence

Got a postcard in the mail today, advertising a parenting conference our church will be hosting in May, and it took me back for a few minutes to the time before we had any kids.  Ah, the freedom… umm, er, I mean… oh, yes, I remember.

Fred and I didn’t realize at the time how much of a blessing it was that we felt called to adopt first (and had no idea we’d probably be adopting “only!”).  Because by adopting, we knew we were in unfamiliar territory.  So being the nerds we both are, we scrambled around and got as much information as we could about what it would mean to rear children.  We spent time with all our already-parents friends, attended a few seminars, read numerous books… Oh, and I got a masters degree that involved 2 years of child therapy.  So yes, we were armed when the boys finally came home.

And not that we didn’t still struggle – of course we did! – but, wow, was it a tremendous help that we had already thought about the different scenarios we might encounter.  That we had already seen two-year-olds in complete-meltdown-mode.  That we knew our training and discipline philosophy (at least the framework).

Because once we had the boys, there was little time for anything other than getting to know their personalities and getting us all adjusted to living together as a family.  Very little philosophizing went on.

And today, looking back – and also looking forward to when the next kids arrive – I am so thankful for the “boot camp” we went through as a newly-married couple.  I was grumbling to a friend this afternoon about how one of our guys keeps having accidents, but when I got my postcard I was reminded that if that’s my biggest problem in child-rearing right now, I’m pretty blessed!  And it’s not because Fred and I are just “so good at parenting.”  We have had (and still have) a lot of great role-models and advisers to help us set healthy patterns or switch gears when we’ve needed to try something new.

I’m sure we’ve long-since saved the time spent up-front.  And the peace around our house is invaluable.  So “Thanks!” to those of you who read this blog and have helped us along the way!  I really appreciate you!

Reverse-Culture Shock

Been home for a week and a half, and for some reason this trip has thrown me into “reverse-culture shock” unlike any other I’ve been on.  Maybe it’s the kids – going from CIPI to my own five year olds who can read, write, and explain the Louisiana Purchase in-detail.  That we have so much stuff here, after spending one day with no running water there.  Or that I was working alone most days, so I’m “debriefing” myself as I talk about my experience with everyone else who asks.

Or maybe it’s something else.  Don’t know.   But at any rate, I’ve been struggling with a bout of something like “survivor’s guilt.”  I went, I played with some kids who have nearly nothing, and then I came back to my very-comfortable life here in the U.S.  Meanwhile those same kids are heading into another week of only basic physical needs being met. 

So that’s why I went into bloggy-silence for a bit there.  Still processing.

But I went downtown and bought long-promised circus tickets the other day, so we can take the boys when Barnum and Bailey come to Baltimore in April.  It’s not “the answer,” and I do hope to remain effected by my (albeit brief) experience in El Salvador (and to return again, when I can).  But I also do need to readjust to “normal” here – though with a greater appreciation for all I have, and all I can give my kids.

Pretty sure more will come of it than that in the future, though.  Not sure what, but something.  Fortunately, Fred doesn’t think I’m totally whack.  So I’ll keep you all posted.  But for now, please accept this as my transitional post back into the blogosphere.  :)

After attending The Union Church of San Salvador (international non-denominational church) this morning, Lucy hopped on a bus to Guatemala to do some adoption networking there.  Our housemate Jen and I got the better end of the deal and ventured out to hike up the volcano that sits northwest of the city.

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The present-day crater sits in the wide hump to the left, named El  Boquerón (”Big Mouth”).  The taller peak to the right is Picacho (”Peak”).  It was formed by a violent eruption about 800 years ago and used to contain a lake.  Then there was another eruption in 1917 (the most recent one), and the lake evaporated and a small cone appeared in the bottom of the crater.

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The sides of El Boquerón are covered by beautiful (and large) plants.  The people who live on the mountain sell flowers, berries and food to tourists who come.  Jen bought a bouquet of very large calla lilies for $1.  I found a comparable bouquet online in the U.S. for $80!  But here, they grow wild, and the girl who sold Jen her flowers couldn’t believe how much we pay in the U.S.

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Before heading back, we took a few pictures of San Salvador from the volcano, since up till today, we’d always been down below looking up.

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Now it’s time to pack everything back up.  It’s hard to believe the trip is almost over – it went so quickly!  Looking forward to coming back because even in a week, I’ve come to love this country.

Lucy booked us a trip to the coast cities of La Libertad and Playa El Tunco for yesterday (Sat.) – my first time outside San Salvador.  So here’s a little tour of those areas.

1 – La Libertad (”Freedom”) is a fishing community.  Sorry I can’t convey the smell along with the sights, but here’s the main pier with all the boats lined up after returning with their fish.

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We saw some unusual sealife-for-food here.  This is a stingray, but we also saw eel esophagus’ hanging in the tent-market.

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The actual market part is the entrance end of the dock and has booth after booth of fish and seafood for sale.

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2 – The Roca Sunzal resort on the beach at Playa El Tunco (Pig Beach … they think the rock out in the water looks like one – we didn’t see it):

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3 – The highlight of Lucy’s day – we saw a gang member in real live person (she never had before).  It’s pretty common for the gangs to tattoo their heads and faces as well as their chests, arms and backs with their affiliations.  It’s a way to weed out the “wannabe”s (who are not committed enough to mar their faces) - and it makes it perfectly apparent where your allegiance lies.  Oh, and it makes you scarier looking.  This fellow is from NH13, which I thoroughly Google-stalked upon arriving back at the house in order to satisfy Lucy that he was in fact “real.”  It’s a gang in Santa Clarita, California, named for one of the streets (Newhall).  The fact that he was with us at Playa El Tunco means he probably got deported.  (See how much a tattoo tells you?  And no, we didn’t go up and talk to him because we knew our hubbies wouldn’t love that.)

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4- … back in San Salvador – Cathedral of Guadeloupe

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5 – Sometimes you get held up in traffic because of a spontaneous parade.  We asked one of the guys we know here, and he thought it was a bar-run beauty pageant … and the winner is on the float in the second picture.  But of course no pageant celebration would be complete without tall weird-looking stilts-walkers!

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And we ended our day with a dinner out with the Ackermann family who have been missionaries working with orphans, ex-gang members, and whatever other area of need they’ve found for the past 6 years.  Kurt’s been driving me around all week and is the one who set me up with my placements.  His wife Susan and his kids, son-in-law and granddaughter came, too!  Just as we were finishing up, there were fireworks outside the windows… for no particular reason.  That’s just something they do in San Salvador (they’re doing them right outside my window in the street again tonight as I write!).

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Totally forgot to put my memory stick back in my camera last night, so I didn’t take any pictures of work today.  But for your visual stimulation, here are some I took during prior days that give a little sense of how life is different down here.

#1 – Fruit disinfectant – I did usually just eat the fruit without it, but some folks recommend using this disinfectant on your fruit to avoid getting sick from the water you use to get the dirt off.  So I did it once.  Then decided I’d risk it (so far, so good!)

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#2 – Mountains and Volcanoes – San Salvador is surrounded by mountains, so every time you turn a corner, you’re looking at a set.  There’s also a huge volcano of which I haven’t gotten a great picture yet, but when I do, I’ll post it!

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#3 – Architecture and Security – Most of the homes, stores, schools, and organizations around us are behind walls.  It’s much like Mexico and Guatemala (and possibly other Central American countries I haven’t yet visited).  In El Salvador, some of it’s just tradition, some of it is fear of crime, but some of it that we can’t relate to in the U.S. is leftover insecurity from their most recent civil war.  It ended in 1992, and those who remember the violence feel better living within the walls of their compound.  And it’s what you do here; houses have outdoor courtyards and “room” spaces, gardens, out-buildings and then the main house, and you just stay pretty much inside your big gated area.

Here’s what I thought of as a “Salvadoran Expo Design Center.”  The pictures on the front show very nice doors, cabinetry and other home design items; and the sign in the second says they sell “Doors, Pantries and Closets.”

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Here’s the house where we’re staying.  High walls with razor wire at the top.  The stairs to the right lead up to a park, so there’s extra razor wire along that side (2nd pic).

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#4 – Landscaping – The first thing I noticed was the lack of grass, but most major cities have that issue, too much concrete.  But all over San Salvador I keep seeing this “tree art.”  This is the park near our house, so they did birds.  But I’ve seen armadillos, giraffes, lizards, and all manner of other things, too.

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Daily Summary:

And if you can stand to read along without any photographic accompaniment, I’ll try to paint you some mental pictures.  I went back to CIPI today, and it was a fantastic day.  For starters, Kurt had the great idea to send me with some stuff.  So I hit the special needs area with a couple balls, paper, markers, little whistles and those fabric adjustable bracelets you can get at Chuck E Cheese for 10 tickets.  :)

The kids loved all of it and were totally surprised, so that was very cute.  I had brought some latex gloves for the Tias, so I blew a few of those up and made them into birds (made sure I gave one to that little guy who loves them so much, first!).  Also a huge hit.

MY great surprise was that there was another volunteer there.  He saw me playing with the kids and asked me a couple questions in Spanish, and I answered in Spanish, but then he asked in English if I spoke English.  I believe my response was “oh my heavens, yes!”  Turns out he’s a retired special ed P.E. teacher from just south of Annapolis, and he “snow bird”s down to E.S. every year from January to March to volunteer in the orphanages.  And he makes all sorts of cool interactive things for the kids to play with out of hardware store stuff and leftover junk – cheap and duplicateable (his hope is that he’ll leave the things behind and the folks at the orphanage will realize they can make more of them).

It was just nice to get to speak English for a little while, and also very cool to randomly bump into a person from my home state who has an interest in the Salvadoran people and particularly the special needs kids and who donates his time like that.  I was inspired, for sure.

But I had also promised the kids from yesterday that I’d come hang out with them for a while, so after lunch I held and changed a few babies and then chased the little ones around, pretending to be a monster who “needed to eat a delicious ______ [fill in the name].”  Also quite popular as it turns out, since the Tia doesn’t do that.  I don’t blame her; I was a sweaty, funky mess by the time Kurt got back to pick me up. 

But he had brought shoes for the “Medium Boys,” so despite the funk, I went with him to hand them out.  HE took a picture of me with them on his camera, so hopefully I’ll get to post that someday, too.

But more on who the “Medium Boys” are:  they’re boys from 8-12 years of age who have been moved to CIPI from one of other gov’t orphanages called CISNA.  CISNA was meant to be a more permanent all-boys orphanage.  But the little ones were sometimes getting molested by the older ones, so they moved them to CIPI for protection.  But CIPI has girls and little ones and special needs kids, so they separated the boys to a group of buildings down hill and a little bit away from all the others.

And what a friendly, cute bunch of boys.  They were so excited about their new shoes, and strutted around like little “homies” once they had them on.  Kurt said he loves his job because he gets to be like Santa Claus with his bags of goodies, and they do love to see him coming.  Some of them have known him for much of the 6 years he and his families have lived here as missionaries.  Half their lives, for them.

So even though I was a little apprehensive this morning at spending yet another day as the odd white woman who doesn’t always understand what’s being said, it ended up being just one great thing after another.  I totally see why the full-time folks down here can keep doing it because even in this one week I started to form relationships with the kids and the Tias.  And that makes all the smells and whatever just fade away.

My biggest “success” of the day requires a gross-out warning.  So skip this last paragraph if you’re light-of-stomach.  There’s a little guy named José -Luís (yes, another José… I’m good at finding ‘em) who has a nasty habit of stuffing his hands in his mouth to gag himself, choking up slime, playing with it in his hands, and then slurping it back up.  I think it’s partly out of boredom and mostly for some kind of sensory stimulation.  But yes, ewww.  So because he does this, when they can’t take it any longer, the Tias strap braces on his arms to keep them straight and away from his mouth, put tall socks over those, and then tie him into a chair with his hands away from each other, so he can’t pull the braces off and keep doing it.  The other day when I was feeding him, he kept putting his feet on me, so I’d tickle them, and he’d laugh, and even though he can’t talk I realized he understood me when I did.  So today when his clothes were all nasty from drool and lunch, one of the Tias asked me to go ahead and change his shirt.  Which meant taking off the braces.  I took that as permission to leave him that way for a little while, and just stayed on him to keep his hands away from his mouth.  But as we walked around and looked at leaves, toys, those glove-balloons, the other kids and their chairs, he stopped the compulsive sticking his hands to his mouth thing.  He made it a whole hour without doing the gross gagging routine, when it had been pretty continuous the other day till they put him in his strappy contraption.  And the Tias were joking that he was saying “Freedom!” as he walked around and explored.  Unfortunately there isn’t one person who can dedicate full-time to working with this guy, so his life will be a lot of sitting in that chair with his arms bound, even though he’s perfectly able to move around and walk.  Because when no one’s paying attention to him, he slips into his self-soothing habit which just so happens to be totally disgusting to everyone around him.  But for one hour today, he was closer to “normal,” and it was sweet to see him looking around the place and then looking over at me to see if I was still paying attention.  Awww.

And with that, I’m going to bed!  Good night!

I was back at CIPI today but in a different area.  (CIPI is made up of a cluster of buildings that house different age groups or stage-groups.)  The morning started with the infants – and the teen mothers of a bunch of them.  For sure, the most surreal part of my day was a conversation I had with an 11 year old girl while she nursed her 2 month old baby!

The babies are housed mainly in one room, with an adjoining room for the moms.  I think about half of the babies I saw today were abandoned babies who had been sent their straight from the hospital.  The rest belonged to the older girls.

And since I had the point of reference, I couldn’t help but compare these kids’ circumstances to the ones I saw at Vinculo de Amor, yesterday.  Yesterday’s kids each had their own crib, and there were no more than four kids in any one room.  They were constantly being changed because each staff member was assigned no more than 4 babies.  The gal today had at least 12 babies all on her own (not including the ones being toted around by their pre-teen and teen moms), and forget separate cribs:

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Twice today I just went in a line around the room and changed diapers because everyone was wet, and the “Tia” was busy prepping bottles, washing the cloth diapers and clothing or whatever else.  She was changing them, too, as she got to them, but it’s clear that a lot of them will sit in a wet or messy diaper for longer than my friends at home with infants ever allow.

Also notice where I blocked out the names in the photo above.  Two names, three babies.  The wall signs are how they keep them straight, but clearly that system doesn’t work out perfectly either because somebody tucked an extra in here!

But actually, the “Tia” really did have things under control for the most part in this room, and a very outgoing 9 year old girl (who assured me that she didn’t have a baby!) kidnapped me to come play.  And so I was brought into the world of the 2-7 year olds (plus my eager friend who wasn’t really supposed to be with that group, but the Tia let her stay anyway).

And I learned that being 2-7 years old at CIPI and not being set apart as “special needs” is a whole lot nicer than being “special needs.”  They have a big play room, an art room, an outside courtyard with tricycles, scooters and play cars to ride around in, a small playground area, and basically just a day full of playtime.  I took far-away shots today, so I could include them without making the kids easily identifiable.

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Most of the toys looked hand-me-downs from the U.S., so it’s not like it was really nice stuff or anything.  And again – no grass!  But when I thought back to the other day in the other wing with the 3 plastic balls and really no other toys to speak of, it baffled my mind a bit.  Why don’t the special needs kids get some toys?!  I’m hoping to work up the nerve to ask tomorrow, because Kurt and I dropped off 4 bags of toys this morning, and they wouldn’t let me distribute them.  I don’t want to give the Tias over in that wing any more clean-up work to do, but some of those boys and girls would love to play with toys, not to mention the benefit to stimulating their brains.

It’s hard to shed the “North American” mindset, being here.  What I think is “common sense” or whatever is truly different than the way decisions are made in El Salvador.  I get that, but it’s still hard to shift.

But over all, it was a good day.  The Tia of the young kids was very, very good with them and friendly to me (I really appreciate that here, because it’s pretty uncomfortable to be dropped off alone in a foreign setting with no other English speakers, I have to say!).  The kids themselves were, of course, precious and fun to play with.  And since this group is the age-range we’re likely to receive in our adoption it was especially affirming to me that while I could see the signs of institutionalization creeping in, it was still fairly easy for me to see the little people behind the behaviors.  A good reminder that aside from love (what they all need foremost), kids from these places who get adopted or even assigned to foster homes need training on how to live in a family.  They have no idea that people expect manners, that there could be house rules, that it’s not ok to just take what you want out of the hands of another person, that biting or hitting are not acceptable ways to express frustration when someone slights you.  They truly don’t know.  That being said, they do play pretty well together and around each other.

Other stand-out memories from the day:

- None of the kids knew the alphabet.  The 9 year old read to me out of a book, but she didn’t know the order of the letters for a puzzle we were doing.  I ended up doing that puzzle 8 or 9 times through the course of the day with different kids.

- There was a pair of twin girls there who reminded me of what my boys were like at their age.  They held hands everywhere they went.  The Tia told me their names but that she couldn’t tell them apart, so she just always referred to them as “Gemelas” (Twins) whenever she wanted both of them, or “Gemela” when she was only talking to one. 

- One of the bigger boys chattered constantly all day.  He talked to the Tia, he talked to me, he talked to the other older kids.  When he was playing all by himself, he sang little songs.  He was probably the most well-adjusted one of the group, and I think it’s partly because he feels like he’s getting to express himself.  So cute.

The other highlight of my day was that the whole Ackermann family and the Snyder family – full time missionaries down here – came over to the house where we’re staying and grilled out.  So nice to talk to other U.S. folks!  And they’re all quite open about the realities of choosing to serve full-time in a foreign country.  It was refreshing to hear real, honest stories about how they have (or haven’t) adjusted to leaving “home” to make a new one here.  It was not your typical “church missions week” kind of “success story” stuff, but it was truth, and it was good to get to hear!

Well, this post is long enough.  More tomorrow…  Thanks for your comments and prayers!

Wow, today was the whole other end of the spectrum from yesterday.  I spent the day at Fundación Vinculo de Amor (The Love Link Foundation), an aid organization set up in 1987 by a couple from Texas, Sam and Julie Hawkins.  They take in severely malnourished babies, either brought by their parents or referred by the child welfare agency, and they nurse them back to health.  Concurrently, they train the parents on care and feeding.  Then when the babies are up to healthy sizes, they return them to their families and have them return for periodic check-ins to help them form the habits to keep their kids healthy.

I got permission to take photos today, so you’ll get to see some Salvadoran cuteness this time.  But first, here of some before and after shots from their website of two of the kids they’ve helped:

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Yes, each of those pairs is of the same baby.  The little guy on top’s name is Enrique, and the guy on the bottom is Nelson.  They’ve long since grown up, but here of some of the tiny folks I played with today:

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This is Alejandro, the smallest one there today.  He weighs just about 5 lbs.  His parents have lots of kids and were struggling to feed him and his other brother José.  He’s so small that he has to stay in a quarantine room for now, but he has a great set of lungs and uses them when he needs something, and he’s getting great care.  After yesterday, it was heartwarming to see him today.  Here’s his cute older brother who’s also there, by the way:

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Always a little partial to Josés.  :)    He’s still short for his age but is already putting on weight like he’s supposed to.  And the caregivers do encourage the kids to be as independent as they can be (also different from yesterday’s experience, but they can do it here because their child-to-staff ratio is so much better), so José feeds himself his bottle of (very calorie-dense) milk.  His roommate Jairo is with him.

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This little gal is 3 years old, but I asked the nurse caring for her how many months old she was ’cause that’s how small she is.  She has cerebral palsy, so aside from feeding her, her nurse got down on the floor with her during playtime and massaged her muscles and tried to encourage her to stand and to walk.

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This next little guy was my buddy for most of the day because he was sick and was serving out his last day of quarantine, so I could only play with him in his room or outside in the garden area – not with the other kids.  I left my hand in the picture to show how small he is; he’s almost a year old.

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After lunch, he sampled some of the foliage outside as well!

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I’m glad I hit CIPI and Vinculo de Amor in the order I did.  They are both temporary care facilities for kids whose parents are struggling (or outright neglectful or abusive).  So they both have kids who will be reunified with their families and kids who won’t.  One is state run; the other is privately funded by charitable donations.  The feel is just so different.  Here’s the livng room/playroom at V.d.A.:

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Clean, bright, lots of toys (CIPI had almost none), murals on the walls… And the courtyard “jardin” area has been set up for walking the kids around.  Also note the actual grass in the grassy space!

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Sam’s and Julie’s story of how they ended up running this home is worth reading.  It started with them being handed one little baby and has grown so much over the years that they have saved the lives of several hundred.  I met Julie today, and you can see her passion for what she does as soon as she walks into the room.  She’s also no-nonsense with parents who aren’t following the nutrition plan during their post-reunion checkups.  I got to see that today, too!  She cares about these kids, even though their average stay is only 3 months.  She still gets attached to them but then releases them back to their parents when they’re ready. 

The best part about today was that they didn’t really need me there.  I’m sure they didn’t mind the extra hands feeding and changing and playing with the babies, but they have a great system of care, and it was heartwarming to see, even if it did mean I had down-time during both nap hours.

I’m heading back to CIPI in the morning, and that’s good.  There is an actual need there.  But I appreciated today.  Always good to see a happy story.

El Salvador, Day 2 – CIPI

I’d say the real “work” began yesterday (Tues), but honestly most of what I did was play.  Still tired though.  I did get dropped off for the day at CIPI, the government-run orphanage closest to where we’re staying.  And I was given the option of working with the babies (most of whom were abandoned at birth or dropped off at a hospital or police station) or working with the special needs kids.  The question was answered in my mind when I saw the special needs room (full of kids when I arrived) and only one “Tia” working in there.  Kurt, the missionary who set up my work schedule, said that’s pretty typical.

I’m trying to be careful with the kids’ right to privacy so here’s the room minus the children.  Yes, there are 14 cribs, and some of them sleep more than one child.  Plus there are a couple beds in another corner that sleep a few of the older kids.  It’s a lot to keep up with.  Some of the older girls from other wings of the orphanage come over and help a little bit after their school is done.

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The caregivers work a 24 hour shift, then get 48 hours off.  Having spent just one day there, I can tell you, they need that 48 hours!  The first thing that hits you is the smell.  Only three of the kids were toilet-trained, so all the rest were in (cloth) diapers.  Most of them drink out of bottles, simply because that’s the easiest way to feed that many kids and avoid the waste that spilling would create.  But there’s still a fair amount of spitting up, so that smell is in there, too.  The workers were very diligent with mopping and running laundry, but I guess the stench is just kind of trapped in the air over time.  Fortunately, about mid-morning we went outside to an open pavilion in the yard and stayed there for the rest of the day.

The second thing you notice is just how many kids there are – and all with different needs.  As the day progressed, a physical therapist and three other staff members came in and joined the original woman, but even with 5 adults, the kids just don’t get individual attention for more than a few minutes a day while they’re getting their food or a bath.

So that was where I came in.  I did hold a couple of bottles and did “airplanes” at lunchtime with three of the kids’ spoons to get them to eat all their food.  But the rest of the time, I played ball.  Lots of catch.  More than one really needs in a day, honestly, but this crowd was really tickled with repetitive play, so that’s what we did.

I also let 6 or 7 of them take turns playing with my camera, so by day’s end I had 329 pictures to wade through!  Here are a few shots they took of their home:

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 I left at the end of the day with mixed emotions.  It’s a hard place to see because of all the need.  And a few of the little guys that latched on to me (my tiny photographers) were actually really bright, just “trapped” in bodies that don’t work.  But they’re lumped in with the kids who can only utter moans.  Amidst all the small kids there was one older girl who told me she’s 13.  There’s no same-aged friend for her there, so she’s adopted one of the little severely autistic girls as her personal ward.  And in fact the  staff asks her to handle all little one’s feedings.  And I could tell she was bored, but trying to be sweet and agreeable at the same time.

There were two babies and a toddler with Downs syndrome there who would almost certainly get adopted if they were in the U.S., but their prospects there aren’t good for that here in El Salvador.  The agency responsible for issuing them certificates of adoptibility is really slow in doing that, and Salvadoran families (like most American ones adopting) want healthy little girls under two.

Most of the kids there would have much broader potential if they got individualized care.  But they’re living in the picture of under-funding and bureaucracy.  That part just hurts to see.

On the other hand, though, the staff and the few officials I met while I was there were very compassionate toward the kids.  There’s one little guy with autism there who loves to see birds, so the ladies would stop on their way to and from the laundry building to point them out to him, and he’d stand and stare up at the sky and point and wave his hand like it was a bird.  So I could tell they cared for the kids under their care.  And that they did try to talk to them, kiss them, keep them clean and fed, and engage them in what they liked.  It’s just hard to do that well and also cover the vast amount of cleaning and feeding and changing and medicating.

So those are my thoughts after the first day there.  I’ll be back there on Thursday and Friday.  One of the little guys told me he wanted me to come back every day.

Pretty sure he mostly wants me for my camera!   :)